Eat, Sleep, Hunt, Workout...

That is my schedule thus far this week... Jus to think 11 more months of this right lol ahhh should be interesting!

Your not as smart as u think u r, u think ur as smart as i think u r...

How well do you know me?!

What is my favorite color?

What is my favorite food?

When is my birthday?

What did i want to be when i grow up?

Favorite movie?

Favorite xbox game?

Favorite past time?

Favorite celebrity?

How many scars do i have?

Favorite candy?

favorite drink?

what kinda of beer do i drink?

What are my talents?

favorite sport?

Useless skills?

one thing that im not proud of?

wat is my job?

who is my best friend?

what city am i from?

favorite smell?


These are questions to tell me if u r even close to just a regualr friend... If u dont know these than u were deffinately nothing special to me!

Party like a rockstar!

Yea boi! I have been reading my blog lately, yea its somewhat deep, but i think i am finally done with that peroid of complaining about people who dont change and things that dont make sense... Things that mean something important are cared about the least. So fuck it!

I have a new motto, well its an old one and one that i had the most fun with, and here it is! brace yourself... Get ready.... FUCK IT! make a mess of ur life and take it out on others, fuck it, im not helping. Do what the fuck u want to! Because in the end it doesnt really matter, u cant convince people to do the right thing because.....95% of the population is fucking retarded!

Ello Guv'na

Wow, lately i have been in no mood to write. It's not that i dont want to write, it's just that i dont have much to write about. My past week has been mainly chill, kinda relaxed and most the time off, i have been sleeping 8 hours. I will try to be more of a computer nerd, staying up blogging and facebooking about how interesting life is and drinking up all the soda in the world, growing zits and getting fat. :)

Some updates... I have grown a new appreciations for third world country refugees that come to this country and send our money back to their country. They mostly take up the lower percent of jobs that are unsatisfactory for most modern american's. Thanks for cleaning my bathroom! Seriously! I do appreciate the hard work they put in! And i thought about most of the people i am friends with and who i was once friends with that hail from a different country. They were most of my good friends, the people that i like the most! kinda wierd how one day u can bash someone or something, then turn around and realize how much you value them! Thanks fellas!

Im slowly but surely accomplishing some goals that i have set. I have been practicing money management, logical thinking, and responsibility with maturity. Some time in my life im going to have to put down the xbox controller and pick up a book... might as well be now! Lets get it on!!

Mainly for the next month im going to be trying to set habits that will eventually lead to positive lifestyle. Keep it simple but progressive! One thing that bothers me is that i try to do too much and move to fast on any obsticle or opportunity. I pass up the small things on the way to the overall goal, im skipping all the parts that brings positive attributes out. I need to learn discipline and learn hold to hold my composure when making my way through my goals. Slow down... The best part of doing all this to better my life is that only i am influencing this new set life goal. No books, no videos, cd's on improving your life but only using the lessons in life that i have been in, and advice that i give myself.

I wonder if anyone reads this stuff that i write....?

If you are reading this, Thank you!

Peace

Bout time for some sunshine...

This is similar to what i do when i get drunk...

However, it doesnt say that u cant drop a urinal duece!

Damn, i miss those days! R&R, coming to a bathroom near you!

If your reading this, I would like you to comment what the craziest event that has ever happened to you will in a bathroom?

recently...

I have at least 50 demotivational posters now, thanks to google. Im not sure why they call them demotivational posters because when i look at them, i laugh hysterically and somehow find a little motivation in them.
For instance, i look at this one and just shake my head with a smile stretched accross my face! Awesome!
I havent been so active lately, mostly jus chill with not many things going on. Kinda lazy. I accually dont have much to even write about... The president is fucking up, what president hasnt fucked up? The government is taxing our ass like a pimp taxes his clients, what government doesnt have the ole catch 22? The economy is falling, well our country has alot more third world imigrants and refugees and illegals that are taking good ole American jobs.
Taking American money and sending it to thier shit hole country to support thier families and 20 kids that they couldnt support. Now lets take 20 Illegal Mexicans, give them 20 american jobs and give them american revenue. expect them to redistribute the money into our economy, where it is suppose to go in order to keep our dollar strong, but instead send it to mexico... Vamanos muchacho, that money is never seen again! Guess what that does? take those 20 jobs and multiply that into the current amount of immigrants our " no longer only christian country" has. Then take the amount of dollars that they are being paid, take back half of it, taxes, and think where does the rest go? College for thier kids? Fuck no, more like drug money for their cousins back in tiajuana and smuggling money and money to pay for thier families food back in their home country... im not saying that is bad, them sending money home to support their families, but thats why their country has jobs! so u dont come take away from our legal, born in country citizens and make us alienate our country, go to another country and start to bring whitey down there because our dollar isnt strong anymore, because u did to us what we are forced to do to another country.
Go home bums! America is like a Roach Motel now, foriegners check in but they dont check out! The leach on us, pollute our culture, what little we ever had. bring down our economy, they leave thier war torn, third world, disease infested, poverty stricken nations and come to ours do the same to our country and have the fucking nerve to waive their home countries flag!!!! WHAT?! Get out of town, better yet, the country!
Sorry, i just feel that our visitors have overstayed their welcome. And that 75% of them smell like shit! French people are rude and hairy. And liberal. Kinda awkward too. sentence fragments...
Yes, my eyes are open, i now see that this subject really bothers me... sorry to anyone who feels that im being racist or sterotyping a group! Also to those same people who think that i am, Here is a Big Ole' American Fuck you!! Enjoi
Thug Life

Seems like i found something to write about after all... Funny, what a odd twist. that was like a night shawmalen movie... The twist, start off writing nothing about something, and end up writing something about nothing.

Word play is mental masturbation!

The solutions to this country are more difficult than i explain. I dont expect for you readers to think that i know something about everything but i do know this...

blah blah sad, blah iraq, blah blah life... Is it possible to feel good in misery?

THE KINKS- Nothing In This World

Met a girl, fell in love,
glad as I can be...
Met a girl, fell in love,
glad as I can be...
But I think all the time, "Is she true to me?"'
Cause there's nothin' in this world
Stop me worryin' 'bout that girl...

I found out I was wrong,
she was just two-timin'...
I found out I was wrong,
But she just kept on lyin'.
Now she tries t'tell the truth,
I just can't believe -'Cause there's nothin' in this world
Stop me worryin' 'bout that girl...

Tell me, who can I turn to,
just who can I believe?
Try to put her outta my mind,
sh'only cause me grief
I love that girl,
whatever she's done -Y'know it hurts me deeply
'Cause there's nothin' in this world
Stop me worryin' 'bout that girl...

I know she's been with other fellows,
Why's she keep on lyin'?
Hurts me so when she says nothin',
I really feel like dyin'.
I ache inside everytime I think;
I know it's just my pride.
'Cause there's nothin' in this world
Stop me worryin' 'bout that girl...
'Cause there's nothin' in this world...
C'n stop me worryin' 'bout that girl.

Desperate times call for Desperate measures!

So here for the last few months i have been under tremendous pressure... I have been trying to be as perfect as anyone could possibly want. Following every rule, holding back on things I want to do that wouldn't end to well, and just trying to follow the straight and narrow.. no fun.

Well, it has been beating my ass into the ground! I have been holding on so hard to the things i want to control that i forgot how easy it is if u jus let go and let life guide u... Life, has a plan... I didnt really have a plan but i had a direction. I learned that if u are afraid of losing something u shouldn't hold on even tighter, even though your emotions say to, but u should let go and be patient and hope for the best.

So this is what i did... I took something that i dont want to lose... My long, out of standard rebellion against the army rules hair. And shaved it all off my head! But before i took it all off i had to give myself that much wanted mohawk! the point of this was to see how i would feel if i just sacrificed one thing... It feels great, even if it doesn't look great!

Damn it feels good to be a gangsta!

Only Human...

If u hold a piece of the puzzle, do u put it in the mix of scattered pieces or do u wait until the puzzle is finished so u can put ur piece in?

America is the land of the free, land of opportunity, and land of Insurmountable cruelty to the people who once gave all for opportunity to live happily, free, and an example to set for the rest of the world...

Our hero's of war, hero's of the American way, hero's of hero's... They all died in vain! How can you sit by and watch the world wash away? How can you get to the end of the rope that you made for yourself and still ask for more? The intollerable injustice of corporate America eats and is merry as it starves away the from the people the purity of the spirit, dedication, and the quest for free will, that carved the path and set the foundation for a good balance in this civilized destruction we call a world.

Am i the only one who reads column after column in the news paper, internet, and news media and feels the slight twitch in the neck and uncontrollable anger that makes you want to clinch your fist and throw it through a wall or better yet, a politician... Terrible wars, starving people, countries in uproar towards the idea of democracy in their lands... corporations slowly buying out the way of the ORIGINAL American Way... Hard work, sacrifice, and family traditions are replaced by easy mac, iphones, and corrupt ways of earning a living! Third World Countries, The thought of purity from their land turning into smog filled cities and highways, polluting the air, and killing what is thier inheritance from centuries of hard work, persacution, and sacrifice.

" The wise words of a fool fall silent on the ears of society..." -ME

Why do the heavens cry down poisionous rain, why does the earths atmosphere have violent mood swings, why do the animals die in masses? Why do the people take to the streets in riot through the anger of manipulation, unwanted control, and plain out being fucked over by thier leaders! People robbing people and family killing family, kids sueing parents, and parents enforcing the way of corrupt america...

Why can't we change our ways... Is it too much to ask to give a dollar to a bum, give a shirt to the homeless, give a promotion to the overworked employee that u know nothing about outside of work? To stop eating the non-nutritious food that fast food resturants serve, starve them as they starve your bank account and health. Family time doesn't exist anymore but drugs, Stanky leg music, and an unbalanced system of morals does...

"The only thing neccessary for the success of evil is for good men to do nothing." -Edmund Burke...

I feel as if the weight of the world is crushing down on my shoulders, and im all alone holding the burden of human sin. Im not jesus, i cant do this alone! Start to pollute the air waves with positive reinforcment of good things to come, instead of destruction, rumors, lies and deceit... Do your part and make yourself a new start.

"World, do as a blind man does without a cane, feel your way on your hands and knee's... If you stand and walk confidently will will surely trip and fall but if you walk on your hands and knee's you will be stood up and led..." -ME

Please anyone, change your ways and you will surely see the ways of others change for the better. If you're a leader and walk in infidelity, you lead the those who walk in your footsteps towards corruption and spoil.

Trust no one but yourself, in the end brothers turn against brothers, fathers against son's and nations against nations... For, we are only human is our excuse!


Goodnight and btw i worked 17 full hours in the iraq sun today, sorry if my thoughts are scattered and negative... Maybe today brings new hope for a better tomorrow.

Peace

Writers block...

Today was the day of much needed rest...Originally.
We moved the desert into our operating area via sandbags... I didnt know that we're still in the caveman age. Seriously, who uses sandbags anymore? Sandbags... With all of the brilliant minds in this universe, we use sandbags. Well i guess its better than lego's. Or is it? Now im still up past bed time for no reason...

I thought about signing up for my college courses today then thought to myself... i have no freaking idea what to do! So i watched a movie instead. I thought about going to the gym today and working on looking like, "america's next mutant," (that shud be a tv show) and get super huge muscles. Then I went and ate supper instead... Notice the trend yet? Seems to me like im becoming a lazy ass! Not good, black hawk down, code red! I Need someone to make me do what i have to... This sucks, hopefully there is a cure for being complacent and lazy... please?

Well today, i did something mature. It is time for me to hit wallstreet and collect some greenbacks. So i found some websites and some spare money and im starting to invest. Stage one is nowhere close to being over, in fact it hasnt even truly started. LEARN about the types of investments and study the economy... I feel that this will make me a better more conscious american? Somehow maybe more responsible and give me a chance to learn something that has always interested me... Why people gather into a huge room filled with computer screens, shouting, punching each other, and waving around little pieces of paper, saying random numbers that somehow people with books understand. LOL utter chaos!

Ok, Im starting another episode of scrubs and going to sleep.

Stay classy Stalkers

A Song i woke up to this morning...

"My Skin" Natalie Merchant

Take a look at my body
Look at my hands
There's so much here
That I don't understand

Your face saving promises
Whispered like prayers
I don't need them
I don't need them
I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable

Contempt loves the silence
It thrives in the dark
With fine winding tendrils
That strangle the heart
They say that promises
Sweeten the blow

But I don't need them
No, I don't need them
I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable

I'm a slow dying flower
Frost killing hour
The sweet turning sour
And untouchable

O, I need
The darkness
The sweetness
The sadness
The weakness
I need this

I need
A lullaby
A kiss goodnight
Angel sweet
Love of my life
O, I need this

Do you remember the way
That you touched me before
All the trembling sweetness
I loved and adored?

Your face saving promises
Whispered like prayers
I don't need them
No, I don't need them

O, I need
The darkness
The sweetness
The sadness
The weakness
I need this

I need
A lullaby
A kiss goodnight
The angel sweet
Love of my life
I need this

Is it dark enough?
Can you see me?
Do you want me?
Can you reach me?
Or I'm leaving...

Marley and Me...

Tonight i had some free time to spare so I thought to myself, " I should watch a good movie." I have seen the ones I have too many times, so i decided to go out to the px and buy a movie. The movies they have are very limited. One movie stuck out in my sight above all the rest. The movie punched me in the pride. A movie that i had not completely watched, accually a movie i barely started the first time.
Marley and Me... Wow, the movie touched on so many levels. Just when i was giving up on Hollywood, this movie pulled me right back in with a hug and a heartfelt story of a man and his dog. The rules of life and family... Shit, by the end of the movie, i forgot that i am in iraq! I spent the entire 1 hour and 57 minutes without blinking. It seemed.
The movie reminded me of what i would like one day, what i almost had. But i guess one thing that was right about John, he wants what he cant have. slowly he comes to the realization that he really didnt want those things because life has its own plan, and sometimes the things that happen are for the better.
No person really knows what they want, so it seems. Until they lose something that they didnt want....

Goodnight

September 3 2009

Today was Thursday... That is about all i can say about today. It was just what u would expect from a thursday, boring, and unproductive. There is not really a whole lot that i am expecting this deployment, except for starting my first year of college, saving money for when i get out, working on some kind of plan to keep sanity and strenghtening family ties. Of course when i have time though.

I really need to become a millionaire so i can throw money at my problems. people say that throwing money at a problem doesnt solve it but im more of an optimist... if u throw the money at the problem and it doesnt go away, then throw the money further. at least then u wud get some distance from the problem for a short period of time.
I need to start to make an effort to keep my ranch running, which means money to send home to my brothers so we can get sum beef cows out there and start breeding them... why work for a month when u can just sell a cow?! Just a question but does that make me a lazy redneck? i hope not, i dont like to watch nascar...

Somethings new. I am growing a beard! its getting nice lol! I bought a new computer... I have been trying to enroll for online college courses... I have been reading the book, MAN BOOK... im in iraq and we run ever morning, with no footlocker in sight. my running shoes are falling apart! Snikees!!!

Well it is now bed time, kinda early but i am hella tired!

Stay classy