Merry Christmas!

A time of sharing, caring and awkward dinners between way too distant immediate families... :D

A griswolds family vacation and Crown royal hits the spot... If i catch santa in the house later than 3 am and he is any color other than white... Well... Hopefully he isnt the real Santa because i know a few reindeer that will be missing their driver!!! ;)

Accepted!

TEXAS STATE UNIVERSITY 2011!! :D

A Memories reflection in the eyes of the beholder...

I smoke because I hate myself...
I drink to erase memories and numb the pain.
I give everything away because I deserve none of it.
I cry because I love.
I sin so you can have forgiveness.
I do what I can because you can't.
I hide my fear so it gives you hope.
I run for my life from everyone I know so you live.
I take away from you and give it away so that one day it returns 7 fold.
I continue to live in pain rather than happiness so that I appreciate everyday that's given to me.
I put myself out so you have a place to call your own.
I die so you can live.

I keep these wings and this soul so you never carry its burden...

The day you see me fall in the field of battle, leave me to carry on and when I stand tall, look the other way so the glory I get from this task is for my own and not known.

Hero

Happy Holidays and not Merry Christmas?!?!

One Nation Under God with Liberty and Justice for All...

This is America Named by famed explorer Amerigo Vespucci and founded by a Christian Group rebelling from England, We coined ," Liberty!"

Not Mexico, Not Italy, Not Africa, Not Russia ...or China...
In the Bible it says, Gospels, A house that stands together will stand, a house divided will fall."

President Lincoln, Together we stand, Divided we fall!"

Obama; " Let us all gather in this great Nation and give your support as I change it... We are no longer a Christian Nation."

Congressional vow of Upholding the system and constitution, states, " I will protect this nation from Enemies Foreign and Domestic!"

WE are a Nation Divided right now...

It's time we start making examples of people again... We use to be feared, but now more than ever are ridiculed even to our face...

MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS!

If You Couldn't Say Tomorrow What You Felt Today... Would You Regret?

The Best Possesions Are Free...

Corporate America... Unacceptable

You work hard labor for 1 hour a day. You earn $7.00 for it.
You work hard labor for 5 hours a day. You earn $35.00 for it.

You go to a franchise or say a corporate funded producer of consumer products.
You buy 1 Cheeseburger, 1 Large fries, 1 Large DrPepper. Which are made from fake produce, completely manufactured and extra unhealthy.
$8.00
+ $0.97
+ $0.47
= $9.44

You continue to work this schedule 5 days a week for a month.
You get $1050.00
- $0283.20
= $ 766.80

The food you're eating is regulated by the Government, so you have what is called Sales tax.

8% sales tax for the food you ate for the month.
=$35.95

Now you have $730.85

- Health care $147.36
- Dental plan $75.00
- Car payment $300.00
= $522.36

Now you have $208.49
Tax -$65.25
=$143.24

For the entire months work you have $143.24... Thats basically what they're paying you for a months labor!

Because the car they sell you will fall apart, need services, gas, oil... The list goes on.

The food you just ate for the past month will give you health problems causing you to pay more for Healthcare and dental care.

You need food to eat, a way to work, someone to fix you when your body breaks down. And you think you're being paid alot of money, so its fine, then you stress at the end of the month when you dont have enough money for the Bills, the white bills, not the green ones.

The corporations work for the government.
The government causes an inflation.
inflation leads to more money being spent.

They both know they are taking advantage of you and that the money you get paid from whichever corporation you're working for is getting their money back one way or another from influecing through Media for you to buy their products. So they pay you more so you spend more, which means you give back their money.

So congrats! You just slaved for a month, stressed, broke down your body from the cheap food to save money and time. You put others out and become selfish, bad person, etc...

Now you repeat this cycle.

This is entirely my work... Fuck Corporations!

FYI, The only reason I wrote this is because Wendy's hosted the Sunday night football game and Im tired of seeing their slop burgers in my face when im trying to watch Football and drink a beer.

They really don't do anything good for the betterment of mankind...Why would you continue to eat their shit and pay your hard earned money for crack prices?!

You wouldn't give bullets to a serial killer who is holding a gun would you?!

God Bless America!

Christmas is around the corner! :D

Thanksgiving

A day where American families gather to eat and give thanks for everything they have...

And a day where Indians remember small pox and having their land stolen from them...

Good Times :)

Why I am not of this World...

I lay in bed trying to sleep but I never get there...
I get around 5 hours asleep a day and am perfectly happy with it...
I use every hour of everday to do something productive and try to better myself and others around me...
I wake up and sing in the shower, usually James Blunt or other great artists that most people due to popularity and care for their reputation consider gay...
I eat one time a day and maintain a healthy body and workout every week...
I constantly correct myself and look for better ways of completing everyday tasks...
I try to find reason behind every action...
I think about others and humanity with compassion and without regard of how I can be better than them or use them...
I will always put others needs before my own needs... Unless, It is something i need to have...
I live to make memories but share them with only myself...
Im not loud, arrogant and pretentious...
I dont seek to be the one in the crowd who is "cool" im just myself...
I dont care if you think youre right, I will prove you wrong...
I can't walk the streets because when i see someone struggling in this mad house ecosystem that we have created it brings a tear to my eye...
I can't walk past a problem without correcting it...
I cant sit idley by and let someone be abused...
I wont fight for myself but I will fight for anyone who is justifiably right...
I dont seek pleasure...
I dont seek wealth...
I dont seek anything but the truth...
I use the abilities that I have to do good things in this bad world...even when it means doing bad things...
I dont give in to peer pressure, I stick to my guns at all times...
I won't let you down, I wont fail, falter, or trip anyone up for my own personal gain...
Im genuine...
Im caring...
I have heart, soul and body...blood, sweat and tears...
I cant look the other way when something bad is happeneing to someone...
I can do anything you can do, only better...
I choose not to be weak and not to give up when the going gets tough...
I would rather stand in the rain than to seek shelter in an enemies home...
I have been a soldier, writer, musician, lover, fighter, peace keeper, mentor, accomplice, a rancher, volunteer cop, volunteer firefighter, i have been in the hardest Army in the world, a democrat, republican, liberal, oportunist, socialist, but not a marxist ;) , i have been a welder, carpenter, handyman, electricians apprentice, fast food worker, business manager, respected poker player, golfer, hacky sacker, hippie, country boy, city boy, american boy, i have more maturity than 90 % of the people my age, i have been into a war zone, deep in the woods where no light gets in, out in the open where no trees grew, a hand to hold, a shoulder to cry on, courageous, fearless, bold, feared, respected, remembered, let down, stood up for, i have been in deep dark waters not for me but for others, i have been in the shadows of the trenches for friends, been to many different countries, seen the world through another persons eyes, heard another heartbeat, broken bones, hunted for food, fished for food, begged on the street corner, i have been to the bottom of the world and stood on the top of it, i have almost froze to death, almost died of heat exhaustion, been shot at, almost been blown up, been sane, been insane, been passionate, wrote love songs, whistled dixie, shot the shit, been arrested, been kicked when i was down, i have looked into the eyes of a dying mom, i have felt deaths cold grip, i have lost everything but found the world, i have been to the bottom of every bottle, happy, sad, mad, i have stayed up for a week straight on several occassions, broken the law to help someone, ran from the cops, i have been Human, been alienated, homeless, helpless, stronger than a rock, braver than an Indian, i have dabbled in ever trade, i speak 3 launguages, I have gone broke helping others, i have lived, learned....

Theres so much more that i have done...

But most importantly of all....

I have LOVED...

Im 23... But i am not of this World...

Oh, Oh, Oh, Jizzed in my pants...

They come to snuff the rooster...

O Yea... October 21st... Remember that?

I love this place, im sure going to miss it...

Going Back In...

Christmas is on the way... :D

Just watched the movie, "ELF." Made me feel like a kid again, I may or may not have had a tear roll down my cheek, that's Classified Top Secret...

Now I am sitting here listening to Christmas music at the end of the movie thinking how long it has been since I have been able to spend a real Christmas Season with my Family... It shames me to say I can't exactly remember when the last time was! Tis the best season of the Year!

Seeing those without family taken in by strangers and fed and happy... The poor find a miracle at the last moment to make thier kids happy... So much to be loved in this season!

So now I sit here wondering, Will I get what I want for Christmas...?

Word Fool

So Far, So Good!

Workout was awesome, College essay finished and accidentally learned Glycerine by Bush on the guitar! Successful day!

Feeling Good...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Edwsf-8F3sI

High on Life...

Fantastic!

Things are now starting to fall into place in my life! I have been taking alot better care of myself and have deffinately been concentrating only on me! The shoe strings that have tripped me up in the past are now tieing themselves together!

I have noticed that I have turned into a bitter man! So, when there is a problem with a person's operating abilities, in the military, we give them re-training...

So from here on out, I am goin to try my hardest everday to be aware, positive and mature about everything. Time to grow up i guess! I have been such a baby in the past and im just tired of feeling down and tired of being known as grumpy pants!

When you live for everyone else, you take away from yourself so they may prosper! Well, unfortunately i almost gave away everything before I came to the realization that I am almost out of stuff to give away!

So in order for me to become my good ole self, im going to have to take some things back from others that I gave them before! ;)

Doubt
Distrust
Pain
Negativity

Moral of this post is... If you liked me before, you're really going to Love me now! :D

Where is my mind...

It is now time to focus on what matters most in my life!!! Me...Me...Me...

I have just realized how mentally absent I have been since being in Iraq! I guess when you're out there all alone in the combat zone, the only self defense mentally is to just blurr it all out! Your surroundings, the weather, the bulletts and bombs seem to never make a noise.

You hear it but you cant understand the noise... You know the threat is real but you don't believe it... You see what is going on in front of you but you have no control! Just there physically...

You Zone the fuck out and dont come back because thats where the fear hides its face... In the shadows of your brain like a stalking burgular.

It is hard to refocus my brain... I guess I will never be the same!

It's cold and lonely here in outter space but at least but at least the light is back on...

So My College Application Essay Topic is, "What is Important to you?"

The question shouldn't be for me, a single, college applicant... It should be for the reader, for the skeptic, for the Parent!

It's not whats important to me but it is what is important to you, to us, to everyone World wide!!!

Most parents are caught up in their own lives and most adults are only looking for fun to keep them holding on to their everyday life... I sit and watch the people who walk around caught up in the whirlwind of society, the spin of the cycle on the human population! America has raised heathens and the parents shame filled red faces are the picture on the back of milk cartons! Good parents are missing!

Every life is not the same nor is every situation in which a kid is brought up, however there are the same plagues riddleing doctors when a kid full of happiness and excitement to everything around them sits down on the doctors chair and cant sit still! The doctor prescribes pills and therapy for kids without problems... these kids childhood are robbed from them by ridiculous, irresponsible parents! Parents who want the quick fix to every problem no matter the consequence! This is why America has raised heathens!

A kid complains for something to do while stuck in his parents 2 bedroom one bath house that is on a half acre lot stuck inside suburbia! No where is safe to play thanks to drunk drivers and lurking predators... These kids future is fed with video games, bad movies, and government programming bent on putting soldiers on the front lines of a warzone! They are fed hate, segregation, theyre being limited athletically and mentally by being turned into zombies! These kids are our futures and we have filled them with desperation and medicated them into believeing anything they hear or see on t.v.!

Children of older generations are adults now and they are even shaking their heads at the thought of these kids becoming parents! Teen adoloecent youth are becoming parents at the age of 15 and 16! They have barely even begun to live their own life and due to irresponsibility and bad parenting they have not a clue what to do! They have been lead astray! these young parents are having to make the hardest decision we are faced with to these days! Abortion... All because no one ever took the time to sit down with them or to be a role model for their child...

There is a problem that lies in between the childhood experience these days... There are media influences control for a certain agenda, there are musical agenda being supplied by outside influences throughout the nation!

The first warning sign that parenting is at an all time low was when eminem soldout all of his records! He preachers broken home and bad parenting, he was raised in a trailer park and lived on the streets and the only way he could express himself was through rap... What do you expect, the man had no outside influences, no parents, no guidance, refused school because he was treated like trash on the street!

We have a moral, professional and humanitarian effort to uphold! Parenting...

Without parents and sheppards we are a lost child in the woods with no one to turn to and no where to go... Just cold and alone!

It takes sacrifice, it takes dedication, responsibility for the life you have created! It takes a parent with Love in their heart...

Whats the Difference?!

My Teddy Bear by Jacob Wallace

My Teddy is my best friend
he goes with me everywhere,
He’s torn and dirty and missing an eye,
but I don’t really care
He’s there for me when I’m happy
and even when I’m sad,
I know he will always love me,
even when I’m bad
We’re friends till the end
I will never let him go,
Even when I’m old and gray,
I’ll have my bear to show







You are the Difference!!! The way you raise your kids is the difference! The way we hold hands is the Difference... The way we all cry...



Bring these kids back!

Finally A Fresh Start!!!

Mood = Stoked
Attitude = Positive
Concentration = Time on Target

A new start is on the rise as this winter season kicks in! This is when i am most active, most happy and in the deepest writing moods...

No job
No stress
No worries but going to college
Most importantly no baggage to hold me down!

The time is here, the time is now, time to catch up on what I have been missing out on!

STOKED!!!

True story...

College

Decisions....

For now...

I just cant keep living this way! So starting today im breaking out this cage!

So i feel like writing...

America needs to wake the fuck up!

You the people want power yet you fail to excersize it! You fail to act responsibly!
You are paid thousands of dollars per month yet spend so liberally even though you claim that your a republican! You share the socialist view even though you want to be a conservative! you sit back and accept kickbacks for your silence and insulence! You want to eat Mcdonalds and not cook home cooked meals! You stand against animal cruelty yet you sit back and devour your cheeseburger! you wish to fly even though you hold yourselves back from even walking out on your own!

Why do you want what your not meant to have!? You act as if the future is able to be changed! I am first of my line to say that it isnt! You act on your actions not on the consequences!

You want a man yet you dont act like a woman! You want freedom But yet when given it your scared and choose the chains to be told what to do instead!

People bitch because there were several billion gallons of oil being leaked into the gulf, yet still drive around paying the same gas prices and blaming the supplier for fault instead of blaming themselves for not wanting higher gas prices so that the building materials would be more sturdy and better built!

WTF is wrong with America?! I love this country yet i watch the, "NORMAL", American shit all over this country!

Fuck you and your complacent actions towards the will of man!

How can you overlook your own flaws yet judge thee who commits sin!? Our entire religion is set up on forgiveness!!!! Forgiveness, yet we place blame and convict the innocent so we can spare ourselves an hour of trial duty! WTF

The man comes around and balances this equasion called life! Inserts a variable and you kick it back!?

WTF, how far can we go before you seperate yourself from your t.v set?!

this nation was built on strong men and women! hard borne children of labor, now we are lazy and broken willed! Where have the older generations gone wrong?!

Where are the inventors, entreprenuers and workers of the light gone! Where have the future generations gone?! How is it that men and women not borne of this country are governers and senators and shit one accused probable immigrant even won presidental office!? WTF is wrong here?!

Life is simple, why make it difficult and fill it with insecurities and obssesions! Wants and not needs?!

God have mercy on our souls, he would not save us 2 times acting like this...

Why replant a new planet if all we do is destroy this one!

Whats wrong with us ?

The Fight of the Irish...

Just as the Irish faught for their land in 1803 I fight for ours Today... It's time to get serious about Changing this land for the better!

Lately I have been busy with partying and having fun and throwing regard to the wind! It's tearing deep at my conscience every night after the action is over, I must get back to what I care for! Writing, planning and changing outlooks in the everyday struggle...

Being a Leader is alot of heartache, responsibility but it is also the best curse to have recieved! I can handle the pressure and now its time to test the fire!

May the pen never run out of Ink and the Sword be sharpened and shaped for War!

Onward and Upward... :D

Sometimes...

Glad to be home

How I see things...

I put everyone before myself in all sorts of ways... I ensure that they are taken good care of while they are around me and make sure they are happy... I drive a hard ship sometimes but when its good, its great and when its bad its bad...

There is one thing i have noticed about it all though... I am always taking off my shirt to give it to someone else, but when im shirtless, no one is around to hand me one...

How is it that i can give and give and you will take and take but not return anything for me?! I dont care for things people offer me because well, i dont require anything...

Why should I feel like im bribing people? Why am I always being taken advantage of?! Why do I let myself down and push myself harder to not be like the rest of you!

I have feelings... The way im treated reminds me of this saying

I, being poor, have only my dreams. I have spread my dreams under your feet, tread softly for you tread on my dreams.

:)

If I had it, I wouldn't need it...

Do you believe in Peace? I do sometimes and here are a few reasons...

If it was up to you to save the World, would you, could you... Could you face losing all respect you have earned to be left with absolutely nothing to call your own or would you just sell out everyone around you so you can still have what you Love...
To save yourself over others...
Even if you lost it all who would be there to fight for you? Even if you did something horrible that people would just leave you without looking back!
Your family would always be there for you, why? Because family is all we truly are blessed to have in this world! They are the reason we hold on after horrible things happen to us, they give us a reason to live, they give us a reason to do great things and unfortunately the reason we do bad things.
You ask a U.S. soldier, hey why do you fight this war(any war)? What do you tell them? Most people im sure say, so my family doesnt have to... Some say, so that my family is protected so that no harm comes to those i love! Think about that i ask that you reflect on that! in everything you do... Just grasp that feeling of love the feeling of self sacrifice! The pride of one person to lose his or her life to help someone else not become or do the things they have had to do!
People who were raised around drunk abusive fathers or mothers, grow up and dont drink or even touch drugs because they fear becoming like them! Fear hurting their children like they have been hurt when they were young and it scarred them for life...
All of this done to protect others from becoming like them or becoming hurt!

Our " Enemies"...
Why do they fight? Why do they sacrifice their lives? Why do they give up their families and do things we say are bad?! Because why?! Because they like to do it!?
No one likes to kill themselves! No one likes to be faced with death, something that will take them away from their families, the things they Love!

As a Nation we look at ourselves as people who wouldnt just go kill each other out of sport, for fun, out of animalistic characteristics... But it happens!
We fight for people to not end life and to preserve it! Everything we do, we do so we can continue on living!!! Open your eyes!

These people we declare as enemies are fucking Human also! They are people who have families, want better things, and want to continue living! Do you think they seriously want to fucking die, want to kill their own families, hunt their own families because if they dont they become known as terrorists or classified in the group as their worse counter parts!

All we as Humans want to fucking do is live!

Religion, Who cares if it is right or wrong?! Who is ever 100% right anyways, like Jesus said, Who is without sin?! But in all religions it pushes us HUMANS to continue to do the right fucking thing! To press forward to be a better World!
Why is it that i am having to see and go through the mental HELL to bring this shit to light, to lose all i have worked for, my rep, my pride, maybe eventually my life! Because of what WE all beilieve in?!

Yea, God... Has us here for a fucking reason... To continue living then pass on our good or bad works to our children to continue and live and learn before getting to Heaven and fucking it up there! The one place where it matters to treat everyone the right way, to help others just for good deeds! Thats mainly Christianity however im sure the other religions are teaching the same doctrine!

Now what if us not getting along is going to destroy us! To kill us and our last place to live! If we blow this fucking planet up, where are u going to live?!
Just fly away somewhere else? Just keep living on hope? No!

We are killing ourselves! The short cuts we are using are killing this planet, the people who only joined into politics to get power and respect, who want to Destroy everything and put their fucking name on it!

You cannot as a person let this happen! Its up to all of us to reach out and try to stop the world from killing itself! If we go, we better be right about there not beiing life anywhere else in the universe, because then we will not fucking exist! Nothing... Darkness! Do you not see that?! That we have no where else to run!!! This is our last stand as we know it!

What if a so called alien came here and wanted to fucking kill us off so he could live here... I bet we would all be on the same fucking side then right?!?!?!

Yea, so they fucking killed alot of our soldiers and our innocent civilians! We have done the same to them! Ghandi said an eye for an eye makes the world blind! Dont u agree?!

Are we just going to sit back and let our petty actions against each other kill us off?!

I dont care if i lose friends over this! I dont care if no one fucking talks to me again, because as far as i can see it, this is as close to the truth that i know right now!

Religion, doesnt matter who is right or wrong, it teaches us to carry on and be GOOD people!
Skin color doesnt matter! Because we are all From the same DNA...
Preferences dont fucking matter because its only what we want!
What matters, is that we always have a place to call home... That we have a family!

Yea, i dont like alot of u fuckers and fags, religious muslims and christians...
But i do care about you! I do see the pain in ur eyes and my heart hurts because of it! I do want to help you no matter who the fuck u are!

Because i dont have much of a family... I have 2 stepbrothers, aunt uncle, cousins.. people i barely know! But i know i love them no matter what fucked up shit they have done to me!

Take it from someone who doesnt have much! You dont know what you have until you have lost it!

Its hard to just forgive everyone for all of thier sins, and its human nature to bring up things that have hurt us all!

Laugh and joke, but you will cry when its all over and theres nothing u can do to stop the end... And you will have no one to blame for it except yourself for not trying to stop it!

Please, Live, Learn and Love!
If not for God and Friends... For you and your Family!

Ole ranchero de Mexia! Soon we will battle wills... Nature vs. Me! You will test my might and my will but my persistance and determination along with hard work will make you something beautiful again!

:)
Until then, enjoy your short lived victory!

Dear America....
You use to be a good kid, now your all grown up and look at you, your mother wouldn't be happy... Your socialist views, your corrupt democracy, your use of monetary gain and your ability to hold out your 2 hands palm up with Death penalty in one and obedience in the other and Force us to choose!

Your constitution is one to be looked upon with a smile of Freedom. However those who know your true meaning look down on we the people with the smile of an apex predator! Is it truly a dog eat dog world, or is there really a system of Justice and if so who is to determine what is said Justice?

I once was craddled in your bossom, held under your sheild and protected by your mighty sword...

Now you have grown old and I stand with sword and sheild drawn in force of protection of you.

I feel as i stand here and protect you as you protected me I am being used... Used for this bad reason... If you were so just and righteous, why must you have protected me with thy sword and sheild? Unless of course, you were wrong in having me with you! For Armies do not attack the innocent! They do not make war against the peaceful!

You stand ready with sheild and sword to defend freedom you say... But all i have seen you do is attack others! You make war against those who have no armies! You hold in you hands the scales of balance, even though they are impure and corrupt! They are no longer in balance but in fact on Full Tilt!

As a man you have treated me unjust, you have used me with blatent disregard of my well being! You say to me with easing words, trust me, walk in faith not by sight!

For i have walked by your faith and along this trail I see innocent blood spilled and children crying! How much more until you are filled?! You can have the World for your order but who then will feed your thirst for blood for greed?!

Once you have your peace and no one to left to fight, what will you do?! Will you heal the blind? Cure the sick? lay down your sword and sheild and pick up a rake and start gardening the feilds where you have grown corrupt crops and water it with the blood of your enemies?

Money is by what you live and opperate with... Yet if there were no more money to give, who would stand by your side?! Show me a Christian willing to die for his religion when faced with death! I have only known one who would not renounce his belief, for if he did... You would have won against his testimony! Democracy was the spear that pierced Jesus's side... For the people chose... Not pilot!

He saw your corrupt system before it began to grow as a seed! He tried to stop it then but already you were too strong... You are grown now and before Spring you will begin to produce your crops of injustice and confusion among the people who hunger...

You blind the people with the needless fascetts! You tell people you are just and you are doing good, yet your actions show otherwise!

Just like early Christians, you force yourself on others! Those who turn you away, you cast out of the land and out of " your " domain! These lands are not your lands!
these lands are not ours!

There are those who say that good things come out of what we do, yes but i ask isnt there a better way?! Isnt there a way to stop the killing and bloodshed and still have others treated right? To feed the hungry without trying to earn a dollar in the process?!

It is worth more now on 20 acres of land to cut down all the trees and build concreate buildings there, the land becomes more valuable than before when it was a house a family lived in, a home to animals, a farm where food was grown free just by farming, a place where a kid could run around with true freedom and do as he pleased in nature...

Now look at it... it is a building and a parking lot! With a chain fence around it... It is a building people meet in and talk about shit!
You tell me that is worth more than the farm it was before?!

Kids use to run through the woods have fun learn from everything around them enjoy nature... Now i have to pay to go into a forrest to see nature...

Your kids go to school inside a fenced in lot with buildings rules and strict discipline from other people not their parents! They spread illness around to each other like cattle fenced in a slaughter house! A child wants to experience free learning, to have fun with it and to be a kid full of joy... Yet you force him to sit still and not speak unless spoken to and learn the things you want him to learn! The things that do not teach life... You feed marketed drugs to them as if it were candy to keep them under control!

Snap out of illusion, be a person be a living person! a person who thinks for himself and herself! a person who is pridefull not because he took 50 families homes away this year and made $1 million dollars, but a person who built his own home and raised his own farm and taught his children the things that truly matter in life!


MADE IN AMERICA

Days go by and Still I Think of You...

All because of you...

Why should good people be pushed away from something great, from good causes and bad places?
Why is it that Democracy prevails over a better system of government... It's being used against us, why can we not just live? If it wasnt for those who tried to take control over others, we would be in no need of a government at all!

Scenario 1

Nine blind people and one deaf person in a room together.
A man walks in with a piece of paper and asks the crowd of people what they think of its meaning...
9 Blind are in favor for it...
1 Deaf person says its bad...

Descision = 9 who voted for it pass the idea...

Thats what we have come to...

The person who can see what is going on and whats on that paper, is called wrong. And he is out number 9 to 1
He can do nothing to change this because the majority has voted...

Why should he be forced out and left to question, to provide answer for his belief...
Truly we know not the way of our past and what future lies ahead for us on this path...

Look at everyone who was indeed that one deaf man... Example: Socrates
Even though he may have been wrong about Democracy for the better good compaired to those who mis-use it for control... He was still forced to death for what he turned out being right for. hahaha You people will never understand what you are doing... Until it is too late to change it... Whats sad is that the good people are being forced out and looked down on for standing up for what is right... They are sacrificed in vain...

Indeed...

It's the Small Things...

Cannot Wait to Get back!!!

Why we wear sunglasses...

Every now again you will catch a glimpse in a demotivated soldiers eye. A soldier beaten down, in pain and ready to quit. Before he picks himself back up off his knee you will see the glimpse of Honor, pride and self accomplishment hiding behind his tears. And the pain...
Being a soldier is more than what we live daily. Soldiers forget that what we do as a soldier is an incredible feat.
To us its normal but to you its Godly... When in times of despair we remember why we fight even if you dont! It's our personal struggle and representation of how hard life can be. It is worn on our face, shown in our eyes and our soul carries the burden that our back can't handle anylonger. We are beaten, broken but will never be defeated until our last breath is breathed...
You can see it in my eyes how my heart is bleeding out and even though I am 6'3'' and bench 225 my soul is stronger than my body and my heart is stronger than the hardest test from life!
So Bring the pain Drill Sergeant! We can handle it... After all we are the ones who carry it!

There's a war going on for your mind...

Free will...

When will you be free from the jail you call your mind? The restrictions your bound by, society's handcuffs that tie your hands behind your back and keep you from doing what you want...
The personal standards of someone else that you hold as your own are the life strings of modern control! Break free from those who keep you with your head pointed towards the ground you tread on. Be strong but not prideful, be weak but not insecure, be brave without courage!
Carry on until you cannot any longer. Then when you have fallen and failed and cannot bear to show your face around those who judge you, will you be free!
With freedom comes pain and hard times, merely have the soul to show your strength , for you are the one who has carried you all along! then after this is said and done will you have the strenght to do whatever you will be done! Stand up high for those who have fallen truly earn their keep and mold themselves from the clay of which they once were and now become...

How do you view (your) actions?

Sympathy for the Devil... How would you feel if no one loved you, if you were hideous to the sight, Your words mumbled and foul... If all you ever had done was death and destruction and were made to be incapable of love, for your job is one that requires no fairness, no justice, or love. Who will have th...e soul to try and save the Devil? Remember the Devil was also created... As are soldiers.

Just another taxed thought...

Like a teardrop that splashes down on a lake, my emotions pour out to you... Your soul is as dry as the desert, hardend from the intense heat that rises against your sandy skin. When the levy breaks my tears will soak your hardend sorrow and drown your soul, quenching your thirst for understanding...

Back on Track...

To KNOW what someone is capable of is scary... To SEE what someone is capable of is visualization of the word scary! Now, when someone under estimates your capability, and undermines your ability, they FEEL what it means to be scared!

For those people who think they are more intelligent, more cunning and more important than those around them, they under estimate your capability, leaving them vulnerable to your rath... Fear the Night For I am in it!

Back to Work...

Should I Stay or Should I GO...

My grandma just passed away last night. I'm confused and upset with myself, it seems that people continue to pass on, but yet i can only remember one funeral. My mothers... It seems to me that as a self defense mechanism, the people who are the closest to me, are the people who i push out of my life... maybe for the fear of having to deal with losing them... There have been members of my family that have passed away but i didnt attend their funeral. There was always a reason or something impedeing me. Well, my Grandmother and grandfather did alot for me, and Im not sure that i had ever returned the favor... The christmas cards and presents, the birthdays and the one thing that my grandma and grandpa did for me when they found out i probably wasnt going to attend college... Private military academy... They always provided for my future.
It's weird, the understanding you get from losing your grandparents. After you have lived your life and your future is locked into time, you stop providing for your future and focus on childrens futures. As a kid, you dont understand why they give you money, presents, and try to send you to college with their own money. You just smile and say thanks then run on. As an adult you realise that the time and money they spent for you was never really returned from you. You see from their point of view, that it doesnt have to be returned and the only thing is that you appreciate it and learn the lesson they have been trying to show you through actions and not through their words. I guess there is more meaning behind the saying, its not what words you say but what words your actions say. ok, truthfully i just made that up, i had another one in mind but lost it.
They wanted to see me become a strong, respectable person. They wanted me to be proud of me, and for them to see me happy meant their happiness. They gave up alot of their money and time for me. They will always remain in my families memories as great representations of how family should treat each other. They were both great people, lead great lives, and lived happily with a great family! I would say that time and distance has pushed us all apart but just like they have always done before, they sacrificed their time to bring us all back together!

I feel that at the funeral, they will both be there standing on the stage looking down at us smiling, watching us remember them, with smiles on my grandparents faces as they hold hands and look around the room at how all the family has reunited. They would be able to see clearly how all of us kids grew up, the adults have grown responsible, and that all they have done has been well worth what they put into it!

The only thing left is for me to get home, put on my dress uniform and stand tall in front of them! Yet, i will be there in all of my greatness, strength, valor, sharply dressed in the military uniform, but they will still see the child there, in his fathers baggy uniform... God Bless them, and may both of them rest together in peace! I know grandpa has been waiting on her to hurry home to him, after all, we men are always waiting on a woman...

Just because I dont want you back, doesn't mean I don't miss you...

Thats More Like It...

Life...

'Nuff said!

HA!

I Survived Vegas!

Ahhh, Vegas, Sin city... The city that knows no sleep or morals. AWESOME!!! From the ride in i would guess thats why they call it sin city, right, well my wolfpack grew by one member and i said could it be? Yes, in fact my wolfpack has grown by one, making two, me first and then him making two wolves in the pack where i was alone in the wolf pack.
I can't really talk about most of the trip seeing that i might be wanted for at least a handful of unlawful incidents, and illegitament children. So for now, i will post a few pictures and stories to come from these. i cant wait for the rest of the pictures.... HAHAHA!

Get Sum!!!