Recently...

Recently I have been trying to dig deeper on the inside and really findout what makes me tick and what i enjoy and could find interesting as a career... Anyone who knows me for at least 5 minutes knows that im too nice to make it in Politics... So that idea is out the window...

I cant help but feel like, im not meant for this world... I cant turn on my own family, friends, and strangers for money... Shit, i give most of my money away! Trust me, fools choice. However, it means alot more to me giving it than it does recieving...

Its like since i was a kid, i have tried to be someone i am not... I never took the time to findout who i was! Trust me there are reasons for that but thats for a later time and with closer company... The more i look around and try to be myself, the more i see my face on others...

I wanted to be like everyone else when i was younger... I didnt have one role model, i had hundreds! I have looked up to everyone in some form or fashion... Now that i have surpassed most of those people they look to me and say, damn! he has done alot in his life and he is only 24... To tell the truth, its them i should be looking at and saying damn theyre awesome!

I dont know... Maybe im supposed to be homeless with no actuall job and supposed to live out in the country with animals and withdraw from the modern world...

Hopefully i figure this out because i dont think they have "cowboy" as a college class...