A little poem i felt like writing since im apparently going through some life altering changes

For you to see whats become of me is easier than one 2 three

It the shirt i wear the hideen fear

The stain on my face hiden from God's good grace

I must be laced with something with no taste

tears on my face

falling from grace

trying to be someones disgrace

i sit and shutter at every good lover

i waste and i face every good slate

with a mile of burden under every moonlit face

Looking to me to guide when i want to go hide

its like breaking the barriers while worlds collide

i tried and i cried dug and said goodbye

burried my goodbyes

but still there is a hole inside

it has no light

no sunny delight

its packed full of bad memories from which i subside

i hate to say i tried since it means i cannot try

but to carry your sin i must lay down my life

I started as a man searching for his grace lifted up my skirt and found no dick in trace

forever it was easy till i took my first step

different picture when u walk with a limp

i cannot convey how much my dismay keeps me away

convos lost to memories fog the memory that got away

i drink till im out and smoke till i shout

party nonstop to wash the memories away

but i still remember as if its yesterday

young buck me standing with no fears in his eyes

no tears in his soul

not afraid to take on the world as a whole

Its days like today that test my true shape

as a man on a mission to destroy all ambition

from the heart of evil ways...

It may destroy me but i will succeed in being the child in my mind

the one i left behind

the one too kind and loves like sunshine

the one who isnt afraid to wash evil away by being the little kid who only loves to play...

I stand a man with a tear on my face because deep down inside i know my true place

Im the guy who never can decide what should be his reason to be alive

So today this kid takes this mans place and suddenly i feel my souls embrace that

whatever i do will be done and whatever is in my way will not stay

I stand my ground as a man thats came around but i will not leave and go about my day

i will fight the demons that hold you tight

easier than one 2 three i know u see me and i know by the look on your face

Lets hope youre in God's good grace...